I am really 19...See the thing is we were in deep innocent love, I had never opened up to any one like that before ever... I became friends with this girl he hated, but he let me be her friend, she made me lie, and I started drinking drugs, and I got so tired cause I lived on my own( parents kicked me out) he lived with his parents he was going to school I couldnt cause I couldnt work and do it. He had to be home at one. I was dirt poor so nothing to do but party, and I never did any thing growing up so I went crazy. I ended up cheating on him cause I listened to my friends say he was talking to his ex, maybe cheating on me, this that and I got scared and messed up. He asked me straight up and I couldnt tell him he disappeared for 2-3 months no phone calls he just left.
She my friend of 13 years ended up in his class and told him more stuff then what happen, so he was hurt budded up to her and She is a bitch a maga one, she hated that I was happy and she wasnt ( we were so happy and amazing)... So she ended up fucking him losing her virginty ( me and him lost it to each other) and she had herpies didnt tell him then dumped his ass and said I just wanted to her her. So me and him started talking alittle bit he went and got checked out he was clear off it. So he didnt get it. Then one night we meet and we are crying and crying and we do it, and it was like a cry fest and the most bitter sweet moment of my life, and after all that I still loved him.
I got checked out to 3 times I am clean. But anyways a few weeks go by we had just started talking again and its my 19 birthday and I just dropped all my friends cause they all knew about her plan and didnt tell me,. So I am alone and he comes over after class and we are trying to talk its hard but trying and we start to kiss and stuff and he said he cant cause my ex friend started talking to him that day ( on my birthday) ( ya she knew) so he left and I was so upset. I saw him months later and she said she just wanted to hurt me again so he wouldnt see me. NOW she might be moving back to flordia thank god, but I saw his a month ago and we flirted and then a week later he has this new girl and she is pretty but known as a tease / slut. And I am kinda upset and my guy friend comes over and says he I saw her she is hot. And I am really trying to get over him but I cant, I am not stalking him but Its really hard we still love each other but we just are to big headed to put it on the table say sorry i love you, cause when you love some one real love you never say enough is enough and I am at that point but he's not. But I am willing to take him back after all that shit cause I fucked up but I love that kid with all my heart, mind , body and soul and some say cause he has been my first love but I had never said I love you to anyone but him and I dont take that word lightly.
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